Thailand can take its toll on the best of us. The amount of times I have woken up here in my bed fully clothed is far greater than in any other country in the world – I have been living here 3 years though, but my drinking career is over 25 years now as I am at the moment 40.
Now, I am also an English man, which is another problem as many of you may agree, we are very bad drinker – I binge drink most times I go out, I can not do it in moderation – its very sad and most of my family (except my Mum) have the same problem. My Dads Dad died pretty young as did my Mum’s Dad – and I suspect alcohol had a part in the early deaths.
I have also been diagnosed with a throat problem recently, and I also am putting this down to 25 years of (not daily) but weekly binge drinking. I dont think that I am every going to be 100% sober, I would really like it if I was, but there are factors stopping me.
1) I love drinking
2) All my friends here in Thailand drink
3) What else is there to do here at night time?
Well, I think that I am going to have to become a friendless hermit to achieve non drinking. That’s the sad fact as I cannot control my beer intake. I will need to drop all my friends or move to a new place and try not to make any new friends!! The other idea I have is to find a girlfriend who does not drink and make sure I just stay in with her doing other activities for as long as I can – I love gaming, fishing and cooking also I don’t mind reading a book if I can find one that I can get into.
I have tried the old not drinking thing before, and wow, its so tough and boring. I have also tried just trying to drink 1 night a week and that is possible for the first week, but then on the second week – I just think fuck it, i’m going out Friday and Saturday this weekend and then end up drinking Sunday, Monday and Tuesday… its a slippery slope.
What is the solution? AA? Abstinence? Get rid of all your drinking buddies? That thing that they put into your stomach to make beer taste bad? The other option is to shave several years off your life and carry on as you are.
I still don’t have the answer but I feel like at 40 years old, I need to come to some decision and my drinking lifestyle is welll embedded now.